Full in so many ways...

I'm full. Physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

Kindness gets overlooked these days.  People take it for granted at times.  Me... I'm a sucker when it comes to kindness.

My heart is so overwhelmed right now, with gratitude and love; sadness tries to creep it's way in, but I simply refuse. Why sadness after such a wonderful day, because I can't do for myself.  Why was it a wonderful day? Because 1) I'm alive and 2) kindness and love was shown to me.

My friends came and we went to dinner.  No biggie, really, but after eating clean for quite a while and then having limited calorie intake. ordering food from a menu is quite daunting.  What can I eat?  What won't make my stomach turn in 20 minutes?  What won't be to overindulgent?

After much ado about nothing and stalling the waitress I ordered fried fish, sweet potato fries, broccoli and a salad.  I ate everything, except all of the fries.  No tartar sauce, just lemon juice.  Stuffed.... I never eat all of my food in a restaurant, so I was shocked. Full. Physically.

Kindness. Filled with gratitude.  Filled my belly then my kitchen.

I found myself overwhelmed in the grocery too.  Pressure.  I wanted to breakdown.  I'm an odd shopper...  walking in the store for an hour... in circles.  I had my list in hand. Breathe.  To go to the register and have someone else pay for my things, because I cannot. Bitter. Sweet.  Full. Emotionally.

She gave me a cd of one of her pastor's sermons.  So on point.  MY GREATER IS COMING. I am made to wait to build my faith.  I am stripped of everything so that I will learn to depend only upon Him. I can say what I want and receive it.  Full. Spiritually.

I've learned to smile at the simplest of things. To enjoy smelling the roses.  To appreciate snow in the middle of spring. And today was just one of those days that makes you cry because you are so happy. Blessed.

Thank you.